January 04, 2006

The Strength...

I made a wish once.
I made it with my purest thought.
I made it with my strongest faith.
I made it with my highest hope.

It was supposed to be my most beautiful dream, should it ever come true. A dream I never thought of giving up. A lover's dream that stayed still for all eternity. A dream most beautiful, most sincere. A dream worth fighting for. A dream to die for. And, most of all, a dream that forever in it I shall never wake up.

What I have always wished for is to fall in love.
To fall in a love so sincere, so deep, so intense.
A love so unconditional that nothing can stand in its way.
A love deprived of all rationale that only two left, you and I.

How I wished to find that love. How I wished to be encapsulated in its warmth and depth. How I wished that time would stop that I could savor each and every moment spent. How I wished that love existed. How I wished to be the one chosen to feel that way.

Time, however, had showed me.
Such love was so rare, if even it existed at all.
I faced so many instances in the real world.
The cold, hard, truth that my dream could be nothing more than mere dreams.

Now I stand here. Amidst my own uncertainties. Amidst my own hopelessness. Amidst my own doubts. Do please tell, should I or should not I relinquish the dream? Do please tell me, should I or should not I let go of my dream? And do please tell, should I or should not I stop waiting?

January 01, 2006

You...

You're the one that told me,
Jokingly, with a smile,
Something silly, something that made me laugh yet made me see,
Something really worth my while...

I saw you that one time,
I did not dare to look at you straight,
So I turned away, saving myself from committing what I thought was a crime,
So I stopped wishing, though it did not seem right...

But you know,
I could not lie to myself,
The voice of my heart kept on saying, though,
I pretended I was deaf...

It was then when I told you,
How awful it had been for me, how my heart was broken, and I was left to be,
Yet with four words that you said, all my wrongdoings, you did undo,
A simple sentence, I was so thankful of, "Then you met me..."

(Dedicated to someone who opened my eyes that it is not too late, that it is possible, that miracles exist, and that beliefs can be held on to...)