On convictions

It is difficult to hold your head up and stand by your convictions.
So many times I am on the verge of tears.
So many times I am tempted to leave these behind and leave, simply leave...
But I made a promise to stand by myself,
So I stand still.
Is it me?
Is it life?
I will never know.
All I hope is for myself to be strong enough to shoulder all these.
I wish to God, I whisper,
"Please, God, keep my feet on the ground, give me strength..."
And then...
I close my eyes...