January 31, 2005

Persistence is...

"I could have abandoned the project then and there, but I was young and stubborn, and it seemed to me my work had a very real potential..."

Dr. Leroy Stevens, Embryologist,
Roscoe B. Jackson Memorial Laboratory, Bay Harbor, Maine
(Taken from The Proteus Effect by Ann B. Parson)
What do you think?

Choices are...

"Do you not love me?"
"So Science is more precious than me?"
"Who do you think you are?"
"Do you not have time for me anymore?"
"I meant nothing to you?"


And here's the answer...

"I love you, I do, I really do, and I could not simply express my feelings with mere words... Yet between Science and I there is a bond that was formed long ago. Science and I made love, we cried together, we were bathed in tears, we fought, we kissed, we embraced... Nothing could surpass that special bond that was formed between Science, my dream, and I... I am what I am. I am my dream. I am the realization of everything I ever wanted to be. No one else can be 'me' just as much as I cannot be anyone else other than 'me.' So if you asked me to choose between you and my dream, would you blame me for choosing my dream?

You love me for a reason. You love me for who I am. Yet do you not realize that I cannot be 'me' without the dream I made, nurtured, and cultivated for as long as I could remember? I can choose you over Science, but that means you will lose me. Is that what you want? Would you prefer to make love with a puppet or a human being?

If you cannot accept me for who I am and embrace my dream, if all you can think about is to have me in my entirety and ask me to relinquish my dream, then I have no choice but to let you go... You mean a lot to me. I am not endowed with beauty or any other talents... I can only give you my dream, which is my entirety... That's why I cannot choose between you and Science... that's why I let you go..."

(Taken from Spirits, Annonymous...)