A Letter for My Beloved...

Dear You...

You know today... this year we have our first quarrel. Do you really think it's worth it? To sacrifice everything we shared after all this time? I'm sure you hate me now more than ever. I'm sure you think of me as nothing more than a girl who betrayed you.

My love, what shall I do to make you see? What shall I do to regain your trust? Did I lose your love completely? Is there no way in this world I could ever see our love blooms once more?

Hate me, loathe me, detest me, crucify me... I pledge my guilt for loving you. I am guilty for not being able to let you go. Not now, not ever. Curse me for loving you, yet don't ever doubt my fidelity. My feelings are yours and yours alone. I can never share you with anyone else.

I shall let you go when my memories falter. When I am reduced to an old crippled lady. When I can no longer contain you.

Everything I've ever done brought me to you. Every moment that I cherish was because of you. How can you judge me as an infidel?

I am who I am and where I am because of you... You made me the person I am now. Please, do not leave. Please forgive me, for I cannot let you go. Letting you go means letting go of my dream, and Sci, my dreams are who and what I am. I'm not letting you go, my love, because when I do, it shall be the end of me.

With love,

Rie